DVDs

I love watching DVDs but programming them is another thing altogether. I've been in a class to learn the programming and while it's very useful...it hurts my head. This morning I woke up early and realized I understood the answer to all my scripting problems. But on the drive to school, I promptly forgot my revelation and am once again battling to understand it all. Don't you hate it when a ultimate "ah-ha!" moment turns into "what was that again?" It's amazing to think my brain is more capable of DVD authoring when I'm sleeping than when I am awake.

Klutz

When I'm lost in thought and daydreaming, I am quite clumsy. Actually I may be considered a klutz. In fact, moments ago, I rammed myself into a decorative post in the living room. Slammed right into it. I'll be bruised down my entire left side. I hit it so hard that I almost fell over. Ironically, slamming into something always makes me forget about whatever was occupying my mind that caused the collision in the first place.

To make matters worse, I bruise easily. In fact, while typing I can see three bruises on my arms. I don't remember where they came from. Oh yeah, the one on my wrist is from slamming my hand in the screen door and the metal handle hit me just right. It makes me wonder how my bruises lurk under my jeans.

Thinking about bruising makes me remember how when I was a kid, I thought black-eyes were cool. I always felt a little disappointed that I was never in a knock down fist fight with anyone because I wanted a black eye. The kid with the black eye gets all this attention. The black eye kid is tough. Took it in the face. My "boyfriend" in 6th grade had a black eye once. I thought it was so cute. Now that I'm an adult, I'd probably duck and cover.

Command Z

Command Z is well-known among the land of computer geeks. As an editor and a writer it is my best friend. It is the keyboard shortcut for "undo". I like to have a LOT of levels of undo. I tend to max it out at 99. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like if we could "command Z" in real life. At any given moment you'll have 99 levels of undo to get rid of regrets. Imagine, 99 regrets, gone forever. I wonder what my 99 would be.

In high school an old friend of mine died instantly in a car wreck. We were the same age, our families had spent much time together, our birthdays were five days apart. When I realized how fast things could end, I made a committment to live without regret. I figured if she had to die and I had to live, I better live life to the fullest. Otherwise, perhaps it should have been me and maybe she would have done a better job at living.

As the years went by, I forgot my commitment to this pledge: a life without regret. I fell into a funk. I doubted everything: my life, my love, my career, my choices. I forgot to embrace life for the sake of LIFE! Then I was making a left turn in August and out of nowhere, a horn honked and I saw a red car bearing down on me. As it slammed into my driver's side door, the first thing I thought of was: "This is how she died. Am I going to go to? I'm so scared." And as I opened my eyes after the impact and watched as in slow motion my car rolled onto its side and then upside down, I rejoiced because I was still alive! I was upside down, dangling from my seatbelt in the middle of a busy street in L.A. rush hour, but I was alive.

I didn't wait for the paramedics to get to the scene to get out of my car. I released the seatbelt (and fell on my head), then crawled out the back door. Sitting on the curb as the police arrived, I remember being amazed that I had made it. Not only had I made it, but I only had a scrap from my side air-bag on my arm and ribs and a bump on my head. On that day, I was reminded to live without regret. To reach out, live life to the fullest. Most of the time, it's just me standing in my way. This blogspot is a reminder to me that Command Z is great for computers but bad for real life.